Had a crazy morning last week… 



Was getting ready for my workout around 7AM and saw my neighbor outside my house walking her dogs, as usual...



BUT I could tell something was off.. She was acting strange and kept looking back… So I walk out... 



Same time, I see a cop car with lights, no siren, coming down the road about 1/2 mile away. 



All I can see is what looks like guy laying there in his orange running shoes, instantly I think “homeless man somehow got up here…” 

Which would be bizarre just cause outside of city, on mountain, but still seemed like only possibility… 

I walk down to the gate, which is right where the guy is laying down, and my neighbor just seems to be in shock… 



I go… “What happened…”



And she, stuttering, trying to find words, goes “he shot himself, he shot himself…”



I then look back over to the guy, and go “Wait what” and she says “thats a gun, its not a halloween scene… he shot himself, thats his brains…” pretty frantically. 



I start to walk closer, she says “Don’t go down there” — FOR SURE SHOULD HAVE LISTENED… But didn’t. 



(SIDE NOTE: Feel bad that I didn’t stay and talk with neighbor… She was a wreck, but I was in shock too, really.)



But go down, cop pulls up, kinda does a duck in and out, in and out, of her car as she assessed the situation… 



I decided to go bit closer, again, shouldn’t have done that, but that was when I saw the full scene… 



All I could think about is “his kids think he’s just on his regular walk…”




Which, I have no clue this man’s story, to be fair, and I don’t know him, but how he was dressed and looked, 
which was just normal guy, on his walk...


Then obviously had the thoughts of “what if this was me…” Which was honestly a trip in itself, kinda put me in my own shock.

But then a firefighter pulls up, yells at me, “Son, you don’t want to see this…”



He was 100% right… Truly wish I didn’t see what I saw. 

Talked with cops, asked me if my cameras got anything… Which I am like “damn, hope not” which luckily it was blocked…



Went back home. 



Just broke down to Kylene, was pretty emotional. 

And proceeded to sit at the window watching cops and scene…



They shut off most of scene, but from my window, could legit see everything, hear what cops were saying. Re-see the entire scene of his head clear. 



Crazy to hear how they do it… Even from the way they were trying to figure it out how it happened, arguing back and forth.

Glad I am not a cop/firefighter...



But went about my day, had an early phone call… I was really in a trance, but just was crazy how in my hour phone call… I go back to the window, and I see a dude walking right there, normal as can be…

As if nothing even happened.

It through me off… First with rage, I was like holy shit, a man just died there and nothing??? 

But quickly, I understood, that life just truly goes on. 



Simple as that. As it must. 



Nothing on the news. Nothing really outside a few GroupMe comments and Facebook posts, but was gone. 



Right before my neighbor walked on it, a few girls leaving their morning hike before school walked by it… So sad. 



Tried to keep going about my day, was slow, texted my two main partners, let them know what happened and that they need to text me if they are ever down… 



Then just kept thinking about one of the groups in the coaching program I am a part of… And around noon, sent the group a message just letting them know what happened, and what was going on in my head.. 



(SIDE NOTE: group was awesome.. The amount of texts, calls, responses I got, I didn’t even expect at all)



But when I sent that text, I still was in a shock… Really weird mind fog, not really there. 



And then had a scheduled call with one on my employees (hate that word, he’s more of a partner, but yeah) and we get on a call right after I sent the message to the group… 



He goes… “man, how are you…” and it was like I woke up from a dream, just hit me, and I started bawling on this call to him… It was bizarre. 




He talked with me, he is a good one, and grateful for him. 

So crazy story… But moral of the story, is if you have that thought to call or reach out to someone, do it. 



You never know what someone is going through. 

In recap, I try not to think about it much, but does randomly pop up here and there.. Super bizarre situation.